Finding A New Balance
Mistakes Were Made, But We Are Not Defined By Our Mistakes – Only By Our Reactions To Them
Trying To Find A Balance Once Again
Now that I’ve come out of my depressive state, I think I have anyways, I need to find a new balance. I need balance in my life now more than ever so I can get back to writing more, creating more, spending time with my daughter more, and so on.
Why is it so difficult to find a balance? What even does finding a balance mean?
Is it a subliminal state of being? Or is it simply only a series of correct choices? If the latter, what are the correct choices, then?
In July, I was officially diagnosed with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and chronic pain. Just to name a few. You can read all about that in the blog post before this one.
Does finding a balance involve continually taking medical marijuana? I’m sure there’s a hippie reference in there somewhere but was really thinking about Cheech & Chong and their antics.
The truth of it is: I have no idea what the hell it is that I’m doing. And that’s compounded by being a single father and a business owner. Throw in some stress from piling bills, election season, navigating family matters from the aforementioned election season, and so much more.
In the beginning, I used writing as an escape.
Writing as an escape is a powerful & positive coping mechanism and tool both, but I can’t bring myself to write the children’s books I have planned.
I want to say that being a dad and a business owner has made it all but impossible to create a writing & activity schedule for the week and stick with it. It’s sad, too, that I can better plan my business week than I can being a dad. In my daughter’s current youth (10 months old), it’s sporadic – chaotic, even.
So how do I find a new balance?
Well, I’ll try using Google Calendars to better plan out the next 7 days as a start.
Meal prep, if I can, while I’m at it.
In all, I’m looking for that kind of balance & comfort where I can truly feel confident enough to continue writing children’s books and more.