Here I am…eating goldfish cheese crackers, drinking a Dr Pepper, and watching Netflix. Oh, and typing away at this poorly written blog post. I have no idea why I’m even bothering to write this ridiculous blog post. What was it supposed to be about when I first had the idea to write this tonight? I honestly don’t remember.

My air conditioning went out today after waking up into an episode of depression. So, there’s that. Let’s not forget other issues sending my anxiety and other issues into overdrive today as well. But some good stuff did come out of today.

A week ago, I applied for a part-time position as a marketing director for a local publishing company. I had my first interview this past Wednesday and had a second interview today. I’ll know the results on Monday. Feeling good about my chances but I don’t want to jinx my chances either. Am I jinxing it by even talking about it here? We’ll see. If I do earn the position, then it’s one step closer to fulfilling lifelong dreams.

That’s also a problem.

What if I don’t get picked between myself and one other person? Does that completely destroy achieving lifelong dreams? Nope. Just changes how I achieve them…and when. There’s a little glimpse into the beginnings of my anxiety and overthinking.

Anyways, I’m looking forward to a busy holiday weekend filled with both errands and writing because any task that takes my mind away from the PTSD and anxiety-inducing fireworks, the better.