I Don’t Understand Why…Yet

I Don’t Understand Why…Yet

I Don’t Understand Why…Yet

It was 2:00 PM. I finished my lunch. Went and checked the mailbox outside. Nothing but junk mail as usual. I make most of my bill payments via online payment portals; it’s much easier for me. I started down the path towards my apartment. Then, it hit me.

Let’s Go For A Drive

Get out. Get outside now. The feeling as if the walls in my dark apartment were closing in on me felt overwhelming. Grabbed my keys and walked out the door, down the stairs, and took the path towards my car. I jumped in and took off down the main road. No direction in mind, let’s just see where this feeling takes me.

A few blocks away from my apartment complex, new questions blew up my brain. One question stuck out the most: why am I making up lies for why I’m wearing sunglasses inside a building?

Normally, like most people, I don’t wear sunglasses while inside a building. No point, right? I rarely wear sunglasses in recent years when inside buildings. Why? Because I had dared myself that morning that I would wear eyeliner. It’s 2022 and I still haven’t completely accepted myself for who I really am.

Questions like “What are you afraid of?” and “What’s the REAL answer for why you lie?” were the loudest. Am I lying because I’m hoping to avoid confrontation? Avoid awkward looks and stares. Or both? Kind of both. Wearing sunglasses inside a building will already get some looks, true. But that’s it: just looks. For me, wearing eyeliner out in public is not something I’m entirely confident about for now.

Other questions like “Aren’t you simultaneously diminishing your mental health and feelings of self-worth by hiding?” fill my brain, too. Kind of, yeah.

It’s bad enough I’m not in the best shape of my life right now, too. I used to be fit, strong, and athletic. Even at almost 35 years old, I should still feel the same about it, but I don’t.

I suppose this will keep this specific part of me still “in the closet” sort of speak.

I’m sitting in my car in the parking lot of my local library, writing this weird draft, now. I guess I needed to get this view, this feeling, these perceptions out of my mind and off my chest and “onto paper.”

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It’s Monday, My Guy

That means it’s time for a shower, shave, makeup, coffee, medical marijuana, and some coffee. These chronic conditions won’t manage themselves.

The Eyes Are Heavy

With that title, I’m thinking of the Andy Sandberg and Snoop Dog commercial where Andy is “rapping” but is told by Snoop Dog how bad it was. Or that 8-Mile song. You know the one.

Anyways…

Things are looking up this week. There are some changes happening that I’ve been looking forward to for some time now. One such item of change is the final dental appointment for a long, long while. Hopefully, they don’t screw up implanting the remaining permanent crown.

How about you? Are you looking forward to something this week?

Getting A Fresh Start

Seeing as it is Monday, it’s time for a “fresh start.” Yeah, it’s THAT kind of week. Why do we always like starting on a Monday instead of the day changes are needed most? Idk. I’m not gonna get into that here.

During the Autumn Equinox, it rained here. That’s kind of unusual for this time of year. But it’s a good thing. At least for me, it is. The rains signaled to me that better things are coming.

Better things like finally getting a long enough ethernet cord for a wired connection instead of wireless. Going wireless costs me half the speed I’m paying for each month. I’ll be hitting up Best Buy today finally.

What I’m most excited about this week are a few clothes I’m taking a risk on. It’s time for a little exploration.

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It’s time for a shower, shave, makeup, coffee, medical marijuana, and some coffee. These chronic conditions won’t manage themselves.

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What does it say about me as an author when I have yet to participate in a #BannedBooksWeek series? Find out here.

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Hmm. What should you know about me? I wonder. AHA!! I got it! I…(a few hours later)… am the author of the picture book Over The Creek (2019). I like blogging. I’m a professional procrastinator (oh, come on – all of us are). Oh, and I am a proud father of a really cool daughter. If it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be here writing weird posts and posts about books and writing related stuff.

Writing advice? Um. Let’s see…my advice would be … poof!! … cliffhanger!!

Amazon Changed Its E-Book Return Policy?

Amazon Changed Its E-Book Return Policy?

Latest Amazon News

Amazon changed its controversial ebook return policy.

A Win For Authors With E-Book Editions

According to the recent announcement from The Authors Guild, Amazon will prevent the return of a Kindle ebook for a full refund if the buyer read more than 10 percent of the book.

Excerpt from The Author Guild’s latest announcement:

The Authors Guild is proud to report that our discussions with Amazon’s senior executive team concerning the platform’s policy that allows readers to return ebooks online within seven days of purchase, regardless of the amount read, have resulted in a major breakthrough. Yesterday, Amazon informed us of its plans to change its ebook return policy to restrict automatic returns to purchases where no more than 10 percent of the book has been read.”

If a customer wants to return a book after they’ve read more than 10 percent of the book, they’ll need to fill out a customer service request.

The aim of this practice is to ensure that the return request is genuine and complies with Amazon’s policies against abuse. Basically, making sure it isn’t a troll.

As “review bombing” became more commonplace over the last few years, returning of mostly affordable e-books (often $0.99) became commonplace for internet trolls and hate groups.

Why?

Because the returns financially impact the author.

“When an Amazon customer returns an e-book, royalties originally paid to the author at the time of purchase are deducted from their earnings balance. Authors can end up with negative balances when customers return books after the author has already been paid by Kindle Direct Publishing” – NPR

And, well, there are the “good intention” folks with their “life hacks.”

These “life hacks” quickly spread like wildfire on social media teaching readers to abuse the Amazon return policy and read for free.

Reah Foxx, a book lover from Louisiana, started a petition to change the policy.

As of September 22nd, 2022, the policy has since been changed. However, the change does not go into effect until “by the end of the year.”

Personally, I think this is the right step forward for Amazon, but there’s still more work to be done toward other damaging policies.

What do you think about Amazon changing its policy on returning e-books?

Let me know in the comments below. 

#BannedBooksWeek 2022

“This is a dangerous time for readers and the public servants who provide access to reading materials. Readers, particularly students, are losing access to critical information, and librarians and teachers are under attack for doing their jobs.”

– Deborah Caldwell-Stone, director of the ALA’s Office for Intellectual Freedom

Latest Blog Posts

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One question stuck out the most: why am I making up lies for why I’m wearing sunglasses inside a building?

It’s Monday, My Guy

It’s time for a shower, shave, makeup, coffee, medical marijuana, and some coffee. These chronic conditions won’t manage themselves.

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I wanted to do this flash fiction piece for #FlashFictionFriday but decided halfway through I would turn it into something…a little more.

Amazon Changed Its E-Book Return Policy?

As of September 22nd, 2022, the policy has since been changed. However, the change does not go into effect until “by the end of the year.”

Happy Mabon 2022

Mabon (pronounced MAY-bone) is a pagan holiday, and one of the eight Wiccan sabbats celebrated during the year.

Banned Books Week 2022

What does it say about me as an author when I have yet to participate in a #BannedBooksWeek series? Find out here.

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Did you know that HarperCollins recently collected only the Miss Marple ones into a single volume? Weighs more than 15 pounds!!

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Writing advice? Um. Let’s see…my advice would be … poof!! … cliffhanger!!

Happy Mabon 2022

Happy Mabon 2022

Happy Mabon 2022

Happy Mabon (Autumn Equinox) 2022, my friends!

What Is Mabon?

Mabon (pronounced MAY-bone) is a pagan holiday, and one of the eight Wiccan sabbats celebrated during the year. Mabon celebrates the autumnal equinox. In the northern hemisphere, this September 23rd will be the autumnal equinox. However, the southern hemisphere already celebrated Mabon on March 20, while the Northern hemisphere celebrated Ostara. It also celebrates the mid-harvest festival (also known as the second harvest).

Some cultures around the world view the second harvest (after the first harvest also known as Lammas) and equinox as a time for giving thanks. In short, farmers look upon how well both their livestock and crops did. This helped them determine if they would have enough food for the winter. That is why farmers (and some modern cultures) give thanks around this time.

Did you know the original American “Thanksgiving” was actually celebrated on October 3rd? That makes more sense than waiting till the last weekend of November. There aren’t many crops left by then.

Mabon: Origins

Where does the name “Mabon” come from? The name actually comes from the Welsh God, who was the son of the Earth Mother Goddess. In Celtic folklore, Mabon is the son of Modron, the Great Goddess of the Earth, who was kidnapped for three days after his birth making the light go into hiding.

Other sources say Celtic Druids call this celebration, Mea’n Fo’mhair, and honor the The Green Man, the God of the Forest, by offering libations to trees.

Mabon’s counterpart in ancient Greece called it Oscophoria. Oschophoria was a festival held in the fall to celebrate the harvesting of grapes for wine.

Symbols of Mabon

  • Mid-autumn vegetables, like squashes, eggplant, pumpkins, and gourds
  • Apples and anything made from them, such as cider, pies, applesauce, apple butter, and dried apples
  • Seeds, nuts, and seed pods
  • Baskets, symbolizing the gathering of crops; bushel baskets are easy to find if you live in an agricultural region with a lot of orchards nearby
  • Sickles, scythes, and other harvesting tools
  • Grapes, vines, and wine

You can use any of these to decorate your home or your altar at Mabon.

Modern Celebrations

For modern pagans of all varieties, this time of year is also about community and kinship. In fact, it’s not uncommon to find a Pagan Pride Day celebration tied in with Mabon. Most celebrations I have personally attended had significant food drives as part of the festivities, celebrating the bounty of the harvest and sharing with the less fortunate.

If you choose to celebrate Mabon, give thanks for the things you have and take time to reflect on the balance within your own life, honoring both the darkness and the light. Invite your friends and family over for a feast, and count the blessings that you have among kin and community.

#BannedBooksWeek 2022

“This is a dangerous time for readers and the public servants who provide access to reading materials. Readers, particularly students, are losing access to critical information, and librarians and teachers are under attack for doing their jobs.”

– Deborah Caldwell-Stone, director of the ALA’s Office for Intellectual Freedom

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One question stuck out the most: why am I making up lies for why I’m wearing sunglasses inside a building?

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It’s time for a shower, shave, makeup, coffee, medical marijuana, and some coffee. These chronic conditions won’t manage themselves.

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I wanted to do this flash fiction piece for #FlashFictionFriday but decided halfway through I would turn it into something…a little more.

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As of September 22nd, 2022, the policy has since been changed. However, the change does not go into effect until “by the end of the year.”

Happy Mabon 2022

Mabon (pronounced MAY-bone) is a pagan holiday, and one of the eight Wiccan sabbats celebrated during the year.

Banned Books Week 2022

What does it say about me as an author when I have yet to participate in a #BannedBooksWeek series? Find out here.

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Everything from the moment I wake up to how I will be ending my day, getting ready for work the following day.

It’s Agatha Christie’s Birthday

Did you know that HarperCollins recently collected only the Miss Marple ones into a single volume? Weighs more than 15 pounds!!

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Arizona, my home state, unfortunately, has a history of book bans. That has also included the Latinx community as well.

Two Weeks

For so long, I was keeping myself down, keeping myself on the ground any time I felt good about any direction in my life.

Latest Spotify Playlist

About the Author

Jacob Thomas
Father, Author, Professional Procrastinator

Hmm. What should you know about me? I wonder. AHA!! I got it! I…(a few hours later)… am the author of the picture book Over The Creek (2019). I like blogging. I’m a professional procrastinator (oh, come on – all of us are). Oh, and I am a proud father of a really cool daughter. If it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be here writing weird posts and posts about books and writing related stuff.

Writing advice? Um. Let’s see…my advice would be … poof!! … cliffhanger!!

Banned Books Week 2022

Banned Books Week 2022

#BannedBooksWeek 2022

What does it say about me as an author when I have yet to participate in a #BannedBooksWeek series?

Nothing, really.

In fact, it wasn’t until this morning that I learned what #MSWL was.

The current political climate in the United States is horrific, to say the least. As the frequency of the call for book bans from the Republican party rises, it’s no wonder that I feel less confident, and let’s be honest – less safe, in the idea of opening my own independent bookstore here in Arizona, much less anywhere else in the country.

In honor of my first post for the #BannedBooksWeek 2022 series, I am going to be posting an infographic from the ALA Organization which is also affiliated with the Children’s Book Council’s website:

Banned Books Week is September 18-24, 2022! Check out this info from ALA and this info from The Banned Books Week Coalition about how you can support the freedom to read.

Censorship By The Numbers for Banned Books Week 2022 - Resource Provided by the ALA Organization
What do you think of this infographic? Let me know in the comments below!

#BannedBooksWeek 2022

“This is a dangerous time for readers and the public servants who provide access to reading materials. Readers, particularly students, are losing access to critical information, and librarians and teachers are under attack for doing their jobs.”

– Deborah Caldwell-Stone, director of the ALA’s Office for Intellectual Freedom

Latest Blog Posts

I Don’t Understand Why…Yet

One question stuck out the most: why am I making up lies for why I’m wearing sunglasses inside a building?

It’s Monday, My Guy

It’s time for a shower, shave, makeup, coffee, medical marijuana, and some coffee. These chronic conditions won’t manage themselves.

Flash Fiction WIP

I wanted to do this flash fiction piece for #FlashFictionFriday but decided halfway through I would turn it into something…a little more.

Amazon Changed Its E-Book Return Policy?

As of September 22nd, 2022, the policy has since been changed. However, the change does not go into effect until “by the end of the year.”

Happy Mabon 2022

Mabon (pronounced MAY-bone) is a pagan holiday, and one of the eight Wiccan sabbats celebrated during the year.

Banned Books Week 2022

What does it say about me as an author when I have yet to participate in a #BannedBooksWeek series? Find out here.

Weed and Hot Berry Tea

Everything from the moment I wake up to how I will be ending my day, getting ready for work the following day.

It’s Agatha Christie’s Birthday

Did you know that HarperCollins recently collected only the Miss Marple ones into a single volume? Weighs more than 15 pounds!!

A New Adventure?

Arizona, my home state, unfortunately, has a history of book bans. That has also included the Latinx community as well.

Two Weeks

For so long, I was keeping myself down, keeping myself on the ground any time I felt good about any direction in my life.

Latest Spotify Playlist

About the Author

Jacob Thomas
Father, Author, Professional Procrastinator

Hmm. What should you know about me? I wonder. AHA!! I got it! I…(a few hours later)… am the author of the picture book Over The Creek (2019). I like blogging. I’m a professional procrastinator (oh, come on – all of us are). Oh, and I am a proud father of a really cool daughter. If it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be here writing weird posts and posts about books and writing related stuff.

Writing advice? Um. Let’s see…my advice would be … poof!! … cliffhanger!!